First off, I wanna say Happy Birthday to, Emo Boy. Because he ain't so worthless if he keeps me amused so yeah, I'm happy you haven't actually killed yourself yet. Bri will hopefully do better today than me. XD;; I'll throw an emo spider cookie with rainbow sprinkles at your house later or something (You're squeeing - admit it.)

Alright and now a few words from Mr. Epic Robot.

"Beep.... beeep..... BEEP... BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. BEEP BEEP. BEEP."

And it just kinda goes from there... thank you, and don't you dare blow up the house.

Now for my thoughts...

They aren't of Jan.

They're of being a vampire.

They're of me wondering if I should leave town soon because of it... I mean I can see why Alan would wanna stay and Lara after all - but the same reasons they'd wanna stay are why I wanna leave. That being people. Mortal people.

Seriously... I'm not even 100 yet. I'm still thinking I made a mistake making friends here. DX;; And James resurfacing ten years ago is even worse. Why?

Because despite the magic he got through me in the womb, he's human and if he actually, I dunno... falls in love with Rid I doubt he'll wanna live forever. And that just sucks...

Alistair and his wife (*ahem*Brandi) will live. Rip will live. Diabolos (seriously dude, WHAT are you?) might live. Rafael and all the people I came here with, Cyrus excluded got years left on them.... at least 10,000. Tanuki and Kou's kind have a life span of 15,000+ years.  Kaze's is 10,000+.... they have awhile.

You guys? You usually die around 70. Unless you're like the super seniors (Professor, Mortimer, Gretchen, Venus)... and by that time it'll be weird talking to you. No offense.

e.e;;.... and yeah.... I've just had this on my mind and not that whole rough sex gone bad revisited with Alan: I'm not mad about that anymore, in fact I'd rather apologize for it. You let me be on top - I should take a little too.

But yeah.... I've just had a lot of weird thoughts lately, prooving that yes I am still serious some of the time. DX And this journal should say why I hate it.

Don't get me wrong. I've been having a blast with hanging out with new vampires back home (even though one keeps hitting on me, thus me hiding in Lolitsa Town) and hanging out with Alan... but I definitely screwed that over by kissing him.

Must be worse on the guy since he's letting me stay here. I mean, I might have to leave for awhile anyway but still during the time I am here, he probably won't be too comfortable now. Which is sad.

o.o;; I think I'm too spoiled... in relationships I usually get them.

XD;; I've only liked a straight guy once and even got them... ended bad too. e.e;; The only guns Alan has though are plastic and attached to games with zombies coming at you.

All in all I don't wanna leave. I love... pretty much everything. Give or take... but yeah... love...

Bri annoys me whenever I go to sleep.

Decided to go no streaks. =P I'm sick of this bullshit. <3

o.o Yeah Rid'll be fine I hope... I'm more concerned with my brother. XDDDDDDDDDD*ahem*alsonowI'mwonderingifsomekindalovetriangleisgonnagodownnow...that'llbekindacool.

Lara' still mad that she has a neat decent hair style... if she keeps complaining I'll grow it back a little for her with Rid's magical... whatever it is.XD

... ew I'm talking about hair again, I'm getting creepier on myself. e.e

Yeah... I love mine.>.> I like the shortness Rid gave it... Hope he does more good work with everyone else like he did Alan (omggggg he's looks so...*drool* THE SHORT HAIR WORKS ON HIM AND I LOVED WATCHING RID DO IT... AND THE STREAKS...)


Haven't seen Jamie in awhile... she's never stayed away from home this long...

Rid should do her now. XD*obsessed*

o.o But yeah... I hope Rid and Jay get jobs from Marge... and that I can spy on the two now and then.

I still need to visit everybody... obviously not Megan now.

e.e Hair's gonna be the focus for some people for a long time...

... btw GO LOOK UP THE PHOTOS AND VIDEO OF CLAIR LAWLZ

Hey. I'm in MyTown now because one of my old exes has been fucking hounding me again... and because I've been stressed out after my last fling went and died.

And these popular bitches are PISSING. ME. OFF.

Name: Ray Whyler
Nicknames: Ray, Rayray... meh. Others.
Age: 26
Interests: GEEKY, spooky, anti tasty
Love Interest/Single/Taken: Single.
Orientation: Gay e.e
Hobbies: Video games, babysitting, breaking up fights, starting them... conventions.
Favorite Band/Artist: Panic at the Disco... (and Lostprophets, Skillet, Tears for Fears, Silverstein...*doesn't shut up*)
Likes:
Dislikes: -.- Popular kids
Favorite Essence: Gear

Just here looking for other geeks... e.e There aren't many people to hang out with that like games where I come from. -.-;; and I need... a friggin break myself.

PACMAN AND MRS. PACMAN MUTHAFUCKA! D<

Happy belated bday, RAFFY!

Hahaha.

I am RAY, the hot-vamp and I get to sing!
So heeeere it goes! Cuz I'm drunk. Fuck you.
I'm really really drunk! Fuck you dickweed.
Fuck you too!
I'm gonna go....
I'm gonna go lay down...
I'm gonna go lay down now buddy... XD;;;

... I dun think that's how happy birthday went...*giggles* I gots to stop watching the metalocolypse...ses...ses...

Vic has a strangevideofetish :D

Who are you? D: I am Count Link the vampire elf of pwnship... and Ray the sexy :3
Are we friends? o.o Chum-level...
When and how did we meet? Bri showed me a picture of you... and I thought you were hot but Bri wanted me with you so I just went to meet you cuz I figured if anything I'd get a friend from it... heard about the Pinky thing, felt bad, sounded like an fag and was blushing. We hung out and played, I yelled at Lily for stealing your money, kissed you, I fell in love fast. I knew what to expect since I'd fallen twice... I wasn't waiting to show it...
Do you have a crush on me? I USED to. Your side of the story actually sounded more romantic.
Would you kiss me? NO, SHAVE THE GOATEE FIRST XD *jk* It;s sexy ]: I will kiss j00.
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. VICCY'S SECRET D: YOU HAVE A SECRET THONG FETISH...
Describe me in one word.
What was your first impression? Wow, he's a hot guy... AND a gamer, HOLY SHIT...
Do you still think that way about me now? No... now I think you're an idiotic sexy janitor who likes pacman, loves me, and is ten billion times what I deserve.
What reminds you of me? Thongs, pacman, chocolate ]:
If you could give me anything what would it be? Your job back... you were happy.
How well do you know me? In and out
When's the last time you saw me? Now because your probably stalking what I write so you can YELL AT ME ASSHOLE XDDDDDDDD
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? >: Yahuh.
Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? XD WHY WOULD I CARE WHAT YOU THINK *JK* IF I WANTED YOUR ANSWER, I'VE GIVE IT TO YOU.
How have I affected you? :3 Ya made me happeh. And gave me more to do...*Lara - I asked for her though*  But yeah... you gave me a family again.(look at what I have-not very close... anymore at least)
What's the fondest memory you have of me? ... our wedding, you first telling me you loved me too... I don't understand what you said after that.
How long do you think we will be friends? FOREVER ]=
Do you love me? WTF would I do that for? XD (more than anything or anyone else, save for Lara and Jamie who are equal... hell though I even love your sis like she was mine... and Rob - I still consider you my son, Robbie)
Would you hug me? D= Did ya shower today? *hugs*
Physically, what stands out?... -///////- hair...<3
Emotionally, what stands out? Cool, aloof, tolerant...
Do you wish I was cooler? Not POSSIBLE, MAN
On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? oooooof... XD TOO HARD <333333 WAY HIGHER THAN TEN...
Am I lovable? :3 You so cuuute.<3 XDDDDDDDDD*snuggles*
What do you think my weakness is? Pacman
Do you think I'll get married? Naw yer not the type XD (I would've said this though)
What makes me happy? Games, me, the kids, Bri, geeks?
What makes me sad? when I'm sad, when you can;t help the girls, when Bri isn't around for a long-ass time, loosing your job...
Do you think I could kill someone? If pushed...

What would you do if:
I died from suicide: ... I'd need a permanent suicide watch... I'd cling to Jamie and Lara but I'd still feel so alone and betrayed...
I said I liked you: I like everything and love everything about you... not pacman but I don't hate anymore
I kissed you: *frenches back**clings*
I lived next door to you: XD Sure if it means I don't have to pose in thongs for you anyway you frikkin weirdo XD (I'd miss youuu)
I started smoking: Not blame you but tell you to stop anyway.
I stole something: who the fuck cares DX
I was hospitalized: SAME AS YOU MAN... AND KILL WHOEVER PUT YOU THERE... AND IF A DISEASE DID IT I WOULD BEAT UP THE DISEASE... AND GET IT RAPED... BY DANTE...
I ran away from home: ...... you too DX
I got into a fight and you weren't there: KICK THEIR ASS LATER

What do you think about my:
Personality: Amazing... you're so cool and aloof and you never really let anything get to you... you're awesome, man.
Eyes: Deep, cool... comforting...*mutters, embarrassed*
Face: *KISS*<3
Hair: SEXY...
Clothes: :3 Hawt sword<3
Mannerisms: WAKA LAKA LICKA
Family: I like Bri...

Would you::
Be my friend?: Drrrr Iunno yahurrr...
Have sex with me? ... I'll think about it XD
Lie to make me feel better?: No. I don't think you'd want me to.
Spread rumors about me?: Pathetic DX
Keep a secret if I told you one?: Yeah...
Loan me some cash?: >: I'll steal some from Rafael for you
Hold my hand?: *kisses your hands*
Take a bullet for me?: Without a second thought
Keep in touch?: How could we not?
Try and solve my problems?: Sure... I was willing to from the beginning remember?
Date me?: Come fly with meh ]:
Love me?: With everything I'm fucking made of...

Who are you?
Are we friends?
When and how did we meet?
Do you have a crush on me?
Would you kiss me?
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Describe me in one word.
What was your first impression?
Do you still think that way about me now?
What reminds you of me?
If you could give me anything what would it be?
How well do you know me?
When's the last time you saw me?
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
How have I affected you?
What's the fondest memory you have of me?
How long do you think we will be friends?
Do you love me?
Would you hug me?
Physically, what stands out?
Emotionally, what stands out?
Do you wish I was cooler?
On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
Am I lovable?
What do you think my weakness is?
Do you think I'll get married?
What makes me happy?
What makes me sad?
Do you think I could kill someone?

What would you do if:
I died from suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Mannerisms:
Family:

Would you::
Be my friend?:
Have sex with me?
Lie to make me feel better?:
Spread rumors about me?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Loan me some cash?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Date me?:
Love me?:

Sorry... was enjoying... pfffth... wedding bliss. XDDDDD

I'd tell you about it but most of you were there anyway... and Lara summed it up and I'm sure Jamie will be babbling about it... I can't believe something I made out to be so lame was... just as great and Vic made it sound with barely any words on it at all.

He's the greatest man I've ever met in my whole life... or any other I might've lived. O_o... I hope he finds a better job... he's never looked more miserable than he does in that bright orange janitor suit. e.e Wonder how Bri would look in... 'MyLand'... or anyone else.

Wonder if Kaze's gonna wanna go there with Buddy... on their honeymoon (hey I'm the uke, I might as well act like the bitch once in awhile too >D)

More sex... some lovemaking... watches scary movies (XD Vic loved Randy in Scream just like I did<333), and Gretchen... Bri G's drawing me as a teenaged girl as we speak. e.e

... Bri's got two annoying characters getting accounts here: Shaun the wind demon weasol (Kama Itachi) and Kaguya (Azumanga Daioh; Kagura/Osaka lovechild but average and human from the human world)...


Shaun acts like a tough guy but is so uke and wimpy it's not it something you can lol at...

... and KAGUYA IS FUCKING INSANE... NOT EVEN LIKE CRESSIA SHE JUST NEVER STOPS RAMBLING... Example:

(1:42:59 AM) Osaka: Miki: You spaced out...-chuckles-
(1:45:52 AM) Osaka: (ohhh...XP)
(1:46:01 AM) reps456: Kaguya: D= I can't help it... my mom does it all the time.
(1:46:26 AM) Osaka: Miki: Who's your mom?
(1:47:01 AM) reps456: Kaguya: Sides it's Halloween... I dunno if I'm me right now or the zombie school girl.... oh. Ayumu. o.o Uh... Kasugusa's her maiden name.
1:47:01 AM) reps456: Kaguya: Sides it's Halloween... I dunno if I'm me right now or the zombie school girl.... oh. Ayumu. o.o Uh... Kasugusa's her maiden name.

(1:50:19 AM) Osaka: Miki: Ohhhhh....
(1:50:55 AM) reps456: Kaguya: o.o and Kaasan was a sports legend here... Kagura...
(1:51:26 AM) Osaka: Miki: Kagura-san? Sakaa-san told me of her...
(1:51:42 AM) reps456: Kaguya: *rambled* Mom named me that cuz it sounds like her name but my name really means the Moon Princess... cuz mom thought we were both beautiful... but I have short hair so wouldnt I be handsome then?
(1:51:51 AM) reps456: (XD bla bla bla)
(1:53:23 AM) Osaka: Miki: I think you're cute!! -giggle-
(1:53:58 AM) reps456: Kaguya: '.'- Thanks... you're cuter though... you look more lika girl and you're all giggly and sweet-like...
(1:55:09 AM) Osaka: Miki: -smile- Thank you! You're very nice!
(1:56:00 AM) reps456: Kaguya: '.' Mom taught me manners... she says most people back her her old hometown were all rowdy n' stuff and my kaasan's kinda like that too. DX
(1:56:55 AM) Osaka: Miki: That's good! The manners that is -giggle-
(1:58:51 AM) reps456: Kaguya: ^^ Yeah. Nice people make more friends I think... less their into the badboy/badgirl thing... wonder if my mom counts... but you prolly got lotsa friends then.
 

... seriously... WHAT? ._.

... but yeah... saw Vic with... that look again... the really cute one... and he saw some things I wish he hadn't... two things...

Stuff I can barely explain since what he saw and heard is all I remember.

But still... e.e I'm a happy manbride...

o_o October 30th has coooome. Getting married day before my all-time fave holiday.

... I'm getting married today... getting married to Vic...

... ._.;; first to be married in MyTown...

.................. can't be a priest, even if MyTown had one... who's even doing the ceremony... Rosalyn...?

.... God... I don't even know what to think...

.... nervous... really really nervous...

Does he know how much I love him? Is something gonna screw this all up...?

(and guiltuniverse wise) Jamie's furious... doubt Ray cares...

(normal) Jamie's gonna drag Ray somehow... is that gonna ruin it?

... what's gonna happen tomorrow... fuck...

... I never saw Vic as the type to care about his looks but... last week he got all sad about them.... even if Vic was ugly (which he's not - he's hAWT...) I'd love him like he was... and I don't think he lost his looks form when he was a teenager... I mean I was an ugly thing as a kid <_<;;

... But yeah... him being cute makes me feel better...

////for Vic's, Sam's, Lily's, and both Bri's eyes only////... and I guess Gertrude////////////

.... so the past two days have been awesome...

I always have a blast with Vic just sitting around being lazy... because even that's fun, s'long as I'm with him..*mumlesinhisarmsmumble* We could be in an empty room alone with nothing to do and I'd still be perfectly happy.

We got into things I've never done before... I learned new stuff about Vic too. I always figured the guy had a fetish or two in the closet... just not for a secret to be that he actually kinda acted like he came out the closet. o.o Either way I had fun... we experimented... we switched positions and... Vic's face was definitely the sweetest thing I've ever seen since the births of both my... 'our' daughters. (even though one was with a woman, Vic's just as much Jamie's father as I am.) Everything about those first tries made my heart live and race like a human's. Blushes, touching, licking, clinging... whip-creaming...

The whole Santa thing was funny... I got clueless at one point and my best punishment for naughty Vic was for him to have to suck Santa's candycane. Which was LAAAAAAAME. DX

... I wonder what we DIDN'T try besides the really mushy romantic stuff...

Instead it ende dup getting to be the rough stuff... I got so caught up in it...

...... but then we were BOTH in pain... and my screaming...

................. I was thinking of Jan when that happened. We were violent 'lovers' too. Raisley still afraid of any sort of sexual contact because of him. We were way worse than that night with Vic thought... we did stuff that would leave a normal human being dead. Not even bluffing there... we bit and bled out. And I was always on the bottom... I was interested in sex but nothing that insane. Stuff even Krutcha might cringe at, if only at the tought of it being done to her...

... then again that might be her ideal death.

... I don't care how much you love him Gertrude... he is going to die... slowly... i don't care if you or anyone else is watching, I'm gonna make him squeal like a pig for hours, maybe days before I finally let him die. He deserves nothing but this.

... so now even the people who didn't go to Gentana will hear horror stories about what our help encountered and less people will probably come now. Honestly, I think it's sad but probably for the best... I just couldn't be without Vic though but I belong here... you people applauded how well I did. That was a lot of power I used and a week later, I'm still exhausted. Can you honestly believe that things wouldn't be kinda bad if I went to live happily and bored ever after in MyTown? My friends all live here,t he ones I grew up with. I need to make sure they're all okay. I couldn;t save anybody I lost growing up so I have to make sure I take care of as many people as I can now.

... Jamie's still healing... she's in bed right now... Vic brought Lara to bed with us, which is cute... they really are inseperable. He probably would've brought her too... I love this family.

I can't believe I witnessed that again... it was just like what happened when I found mom that day. Scattered everywhere and broken... pain still on her face, cold...*cringes*

Don't get me started on my drunken hallucination of Lucas.... just don't.

I need my Vic now...More updated later.

Thank you all again, everybody.
 

... People I want to Invite... Vic might want people too...

1) Sam
2) Lily
3) Rob
(Jamie and Lara obviously)
4) Gertrude
5) e_e... Not Eugene.... Tsukino can bring him as a date but he won't come...
6) Kou
7) Tanuki
8) Souri
...

Kaze, Jay, Tashi, Holly (NO CAMERAS), Bri obviously (both e_e), Damie, Evelyn, STEPHEN (NO REASON AT ALL), Rosalyn... Taryn... Rafael, Morcubus (NO EATING ALL OF THE CAKE, NO DIVING IN IT), Maximus, Raisley, Storme, Aiko (you tried to cheer everyone up), Inna I guess...

o.o;; I don't really know who else...

... Suits... look weird on me and I'm still blushing and I'm still shaking and I feel like a chick...

... Are their rules against having a wedding in an arcade? I can;t go in a... blessed... cheery... sacred-ish atmosphere...

I'MMA GETTIN' HITCHED! TO VIC!

SEHGSDFLGHLDHLDFGDFJKH <33333333333333333333333333333

0.0 HOW DID HE... WHERE DO YOU PEOPLE EVEN GET RINGS!?

........................... I figured if this ever happened I'd be the one who'd have to work my ass off for a ring and look for a time to do it...

....... I love this guy and as stupid as my face looked during that 17 seconds I spent thinking of how to reply, that was definately the peak of... PWN happy I've ever felt. =)

... THIS GUY IS THE FUCKING BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T;;;;;;

o______o;; I'm... so.... stoked... I can't even make a decent journal and I am going to get laughed at so hard by everyone who knows me when they see this...

... gonna go be with Vic now... later...<3

... she's embarrassing me a lot again... go read her most previous journal then come back here.

.....................................................................................................................//////////////////////////

... once, Rob asked me why it didn't work out between me and my first boyfriend... the one not even mentioned in my bio.

...


I really really hate everyone who reads this shit.

Okay...

Imagine: A somewhat Hogwarts looking place, only much less brightly lit and surrounded my graveyard and a city more a ghost town than that of Silent Hill...

Inside the castle, is a school. A school where murdering another student got you extra points on the report card and where rape made you popular.

I was pretty bad in school. Smart, even nerdy to the point where I had glasses like the stereotype. I lived under Rafael and his family. They knocked on mom's door after spying on us for a day or something and decided we'd have no self-respect as long as we got a scrap of cash. Mom would just settle for anything, especially since we got our own almost apartment... in the basement of his manor. Assholes.

But to the point... there I met my first friend, Kou. Then Tsukino, then Souri and eventually we had me, Souri, Tsukino, Kou, Kaze, Tanuki, Tashi, Jay, and my other friends who were the 'geeks' of Monstrous City Academy.

Iris, a mythos. There's a picture of her on photobucket... She was girly but once Video games were introduced she was the stereotypical girl fan... in love with every good looking male character and too cheerful for her own good.

Jennings, an insectis... I couldn't really tell you what insect he was just by looking at him and to be honest my ears hurt whenever he spoke english. He was cool though, liked Iris a lot.

And last but not least my 'imaginary friend', Lucas. A ghost... he was about 16 when he died and I seemed to be the only one to know he was there... the other ghosts ignored him, especially girls (for a reason I'll get to) and none of the living saw him. He had a thing for making me look bad to girls... whenever I was in the presence of one, whether I was even looking at them or not, he'd flip up there skirt or smack there ass when there weren't looking and call something out or whistle... I'd be the closest so I'd get hit and/or screamed at. But he loved games too... and we usually also played pranks on the same girls that hit me later... and THEN and only THEN would they see him sintead of me... he'd trap them out on the balcony then smile and wave at them through the window and as petty as it was, they'd be scared shitless... and I admired him that he had that way about him. He was cool... so old school though. He loved video games but he was born in the Victorian Era or something...

One day during a competition with him and the other geeks, we were talking and laughing the whole time and of course, Jennings and Iris could only imagine what was going on... they didn't not trust me about him existing, unlike Rafael and Tsukino who figured I'd finally snapped.

Lucas floated onto me, snuggling... a lot like Rob did that one, stupid time I kissed him... and that's exactly what happened, but in reverse...

I was.... shocked... I jumped up and through him, jumping around and screaming liek and idiot and crashed into the TV capsule and wrecked the game... as a geek, I'm still ashamed of that.

But... I never really felt attracted until that second either and it creeped me out...

Now homphobes aren't even common in Gentana. I wasn't worried about ttaht... I just didn't really know how to comprehend being gay... or know how and why it would even work. OR WHY LUCAS OF ALL PEOPLE WAS GAY FOR ME CUZ I MEAN, HE WAS SO GIRL OBSESSED IT LOOKED LIKE... Looking back on it now I guess he didn't want me going straight. Ew.

I eventually talked to him... and kinda realized I guess that I felt the same way... he was always special because I was all he had and knew that. I liked that feeling... And his long hair was cool (hence why I now have it maybe? no? who knows. back in school it barely touched my shoulders)

But eventually we got to the point where... my hormones kicked in. And for a vampire, it's worse than a demon. Like cubi, we have a certain need for it. You know... and Lucas was perverted. I loved him though and even now he's not nearly as demented as Jan or the scientist I ended up with for a time.

We ended up doing something that would get more in a lot of trouble... he decided to possess someone. I was against it... but I gave in... I never saw Lucas as happy as he was with me... and through that person's face I still only saw him. He was... at peace.

And that's what went 'wrong'... he didn't have anything binding him to this living world anymore... and ghosts when they have nothing to regret anymore ascend to The World Above...

And just like that I was alone again.

Souri was the first person I told and already having a crush on me, I ended up fake dating her to keep anyone from knowing, ashamed and afraid about what was going to happen to me for what me and him had done...

He was the only person I ever cared for as much on the same level as Vic...

I did suffer for his mistake and mine though... that kid and his fucktard drones got back at me and that's where I end the story.

Crappy Emo Day to all.

After surfing around photobucket I made a life-changing discovery that'll permanently alter the way I look at my boyfriend...

... his spooky self... IS SO FUCKING HAWT, HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!<3333333333*spasms**bounces*

 

.... I still want more comments on the last one ]: Rawr ~<3